LDRs

I have ‘friends’ everywhere but most of my true friends are in Philippines. And my boyfriend is also there.
Maybe some of you will judge my relationship with them saying we are too far from eachother, that I have to see them often to know them better.

For me, like a quote said, closeness has nothing to do with distance. You know you’ve got a true, real friendship when you don’t have to always see each other to remain friends. When you don’t have to hang out every day or talk all the time to keep the friendship alive. You know you have a good relationship when you don’t need to see your loved one all the time or when you can’t see them all the time and it your relationship is never deteriorates.

When you’re close at heart, distance really doesn’t matter. Not really anyway. Friendships and relationships are proven to be real and true when the obstacle called distance intervenes and nothing changes.. if anything, you guys grow closer. You grow together, not apart.

Long distance relationship are not for everyone, you have to be strong and patient, but in the end, when you surpass this obstacle, it is going to be worth it.

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countdown

Yes I am excited. 41 days to go and I am home, with my lolo, lola, friends and of course my lover boy.

Overflowing

Ok I’m not a perfect daughter, but I can say I almost am. I’m a working student, I do the housework, I’m not a party girl in fact my friends sometimes do get “angry” with me because I do not want to go out or if I do go with them I want to go home early. I do not know what to do to make them appreciate what I do and don’t. Is it that hard to say one THANK YOU DEE or I’M PROUD OF YOU DEE???? Yesterday I bought this book for her and all she can say “I already saw this book in tv!!” Sometimes I do ask my dad why is she like that and he said she is proud of me but do not want to let it see. Well maybe she is…but I do want to see/feel it, making me feel like shit is not going to make work harder to make you proud!!! I do get tired too. I’m sick of all your complain about everything. I’m sick of you telling I look like an old woman because of how I dress. I’m sick of you telling me I didn’t do this and that. I’m sick of you telling me that there’s no job in graphic studios. I’m sick of you telling I’m stupid because I’m in a long distance relationship. I’m sick of you!!! Why do you always have negative things to say!!!
Today my anger just spontaneously overflow but what I’m doing?? I’m just writing this and not yelling at you!! I hate how I cannot do that. Maybe one day I’ll be able to that. Tonight I will just hate you silently.

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Chicken Fingers

Last week I saw this recipe of the chicken finger on Yahoo! and I wanted to try making them.

So last night was the perfect time, the whole family was present.

First I marinade my chicken breast, cut into wide strips, with paprika, sugar, salt black pepper, garlic powder, mustard (I didn’t have the powdered one so I use the paste).

Then I coated the chicken with flour, dipped in eggs, again coated with breadcrumbs.

Dipped fried the chicken and voilà

I served it with the dipping sauce (mix mayo,honey, lemon juice, mustard, chopped dilln salt and peper) and boiled broccoli.

Brother and Daddy liked it. I’m enjoying my new hobby. COOKING and BAKING. Thinking of what Jobs said about connecting the dots, studying architecture and graphic design, maybe I’m destined to open a bakery/dining parlour, do my own corporate design, design my parlour. AHAHAHA. Ok I’m daydreaming again.

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Cooking Mamas

Last weekend, as I’ve told you, me and my cousin baked french macaroons and red velvet cake pops.

I pretty much flopped with the macaroons. I had problem sifting the almond flour ( next time I’ll buy the super fine almond flour ), It was my first time using the pastry bag ( you can see in the photo ) and I didn’t put enough food coloring.

No “feet” and not cute french macaroons but everyone who tasted it said it’s YUMMMMYYYYYY.

As for the cake pops, we only had problem with the coloring and putting the balls on the stick.

We decided to sell them for 0.50€ each and we earned a total of 16€ . Some of our buyers said that next month they’ll order our cake pops for some events. Yiiiiii super happy.

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Sweet Treats

I’m super excited, this weekend I’m going to bake french macaroons and red velvet cake balls and I’m going to sell them.

Me need money. ahaha

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RIP Steve Jobs

This morning I woke up with the news that Steve Jobs is dead. I was so sad. I wish I could have met him. He do inspires me a lot. After watching the video of his speech in Stanford University, he somehow became a mentor to me.
I learned so many things from him.

Here’s his speech

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I’ve ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That’s it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: “We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?” They said: “Of course.” My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents’ savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn’t see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn’t interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn’t all romantic. I didn’t have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends’ rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn’t have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can’t capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it’s likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn’t know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down – that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn’t see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple’s current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I’m pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn’t been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith. I’m convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: “If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.” It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: “If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” And whenever the answer has been “No” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn’t even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor’s code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you’d have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I’m fine now.

This was the closest I’ve been to facing death, and I hope it’s the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960′s, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: “Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.” It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

Thank you for inspiring.
Rest in peace Steve Jobs. You’ll always be missed.

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Song of the day – 05

James Intveld & Rachel Sweet – King cry baby

I so love the film and the songs but I was so sad when I find out that it wasn’t Johnny’s voice :( but anyway he is sooooooo cutey.

I wish I was her. Johnny teach me how to kiss ahahahaha XD

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Song of the day – 04

Coeur de pirate – Comme des enfants

I’m so inlove with this song. I want to speak french :( I only know some words like comment ça va?comment tu t’appelle?j’ai m’appelle…. and of course je t’aime.

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Song of the day – 03

Beast Coast – Our Deal

The music video is uber cute and cheesy.

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